i have alot to say but when i want to pen it down, i realise that everything goes blank.
i only know, that i don't want to absorb all these toture anymore, i wonder how did Jesus ever do that, i really want to know, coz i need help to absorb all these troubles. i know: he is my God of the past, of the present and will be for the future.
My savior my Godi am not skilled to understand
what God has willed
what GOd has planned
i only know at His right hand
stands one who is my saviour
i take Him at his word and deed
Christ died to save me this i read
and in my heart i find the need
of Him to be my saviour
that He would leave this place on high
and come for sinful man to die
you count it strange so once did i
before i knew my saviour
my saviour loves my saviour lives
my saviour's always there for me
my God he was my God he is
my God is always gonna be
(x2)
yes living dying let me bring
my strength my solace from this spring
that He who lives to be my king
once died to be my saviour
that He would leave this place on high
and come for sinful man to die
you count it strange so once did i
before i knew my saviour
my saviour loves my saviour lives
my saviour's always there for me
my God he was my God he is
my God is always gonna be
(x2)
i am the girl;
i'm very angry alr, just now i switched on the com then my sister switched on her skype and asked us if we were around so i answered then i told my dad about it. then he came into the room and went, "why you on the computer?!!!" i was like what the hell? keep on like that. not only that, i went out to eat papaya so i left the com. then when i finished then my dad was alr at the com. okay, they want to use the com then i let him la. but then when i came back in after they were going to finish, i realised that he closed my fb. i was like wth? you closed my thing? then he went "yeah, all the sound started coming from there so i closed your thing." well done. then they just left the com when they decided that skype wasn't working here. then i tried to load my fb but it just didn't want to load. even blogger wasn't working with me. i want to cry, i really want to. but so? no one even cares about me. sians. MY LIFE IS SO EPIC.
i am the girl;
the first day of my job attachment is so bad. at first i was supposed to be in the newsletter thing but then because no one wanted to go to the HR department, i decided to take the risk and join. so when i joined then the person incharge of the newsletter told his team that his team was going to be the slackest. and it was very slack.
1. they had nothing to do today coz the newsletter wasn't even out.
2. they could go for lunch anytime.
3. they were dismissed at 4pm when i was dismissed at 5.30pm
4. they only have to report at 10 tomorrow morning.
the fifth and thing that i'm most angry about thing was:
5. I WAS SUPPOSED TO BE IN THE NEWSLETTER TEAM!!
why is life so unfair?
i was stuck in the office cutting and pasting for the whole day and when i was about to finish all the files, she came up to me and went, "sorry ar, this looks abit messy, why don't you just redo it and cut it this way and that.. i take this one out ar,.."(she was pointing at one of my done piece and just pulled out what i did) i was like 'okay, it was one of my greatest nightmare.. :('
i am the girl;
seriously, you don't give a damn to me. so WHY DO I HAVE TO CARE ABOUT YOU?! seriously, i hate doing this. why are you forcing me to do this? i should not care but, the words are really NOT for you to say. WHY ARE YOU FREAKING PISSING ME OFF RIGHT HERE? GET LOST WILL YOU? why are people so selfish nowadays? i really feel like crying but i've got nowhere to go. dear God, i pray that you will lead me through these events, and help me to trust you to lead me. help me to lean on you and not on other things for you are tho only thing that i can trust. i'm going to put everything into your loving palms and know that you will always be there for me, my comforter, my friend. i will love and praise you always. thank you Lord. AMEN.
i am the girl;
i feel very lousy after this afternoon's games. i'm not good at balls and/or frisbees; i know; but i don't know why i didn't even TRY to catch them?! i'm a really lousy player, team or whatever, but still, why didn't i?
i know its totally me but i don't like it:regretting what i have done after i have done it. i'm really irritated with myself! i can't stand it. why aren't i more active? why didn't i give my best?!
i am the girl;
win or lose, it doesn't matter, what matters is how you play the game of life-while abiding by its rules:
1. be true to yourself
2. its perfectly okay to ask for help when you need it
3. open your mind and your life to embrace the new and unknown.
i am the girl;
i know whatever i do, people will be disappointed. i know i have made everyone feel that its not worth trusting me. i don't know whether i should say, coz i know no one even knows about this.
anw, i feel really guilty coz i dunno why. i just feel that after yesterday, that gate thing.. and alot of things. and i don't know; i feel disappointed with myself, and i feel really out of my mind right now. i don't know what i am writing. everything sucks. that's all i can think with my head so pain right now.
oh Lord, what can i do?
please Lord, please help me!!
i am the girl;
